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"ed by women, and she gained an ascend

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ancy over me that I could not easily

"shake off. I submitted to this thraldom

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long, for I hate scenes, and am of an "indolent disposition; but I was forced "to snap the knot rather rudely at last. "Like all lovers, we had several quarrels "before we came to a final rupture. One

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was made up in a very odd way, and "without any verbal explanation. She "will remember it. Even during our intimacy I was not at all constant to this

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“fair one, and she suspected as much. In

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order to detect my intrigues she watched

me, and earthed a lady into my lodgings,

-and came herself, terrier-like, in the

disguise of a carman. My valet, who did "not see through the masquerade, let her

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in; when, to the despair of Fletcher, she "put off the man, and put on the woman.

"Imagine the scene: it was worthy of

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"Her after-conduct was unaccountable

"madness

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a combination of spite and

jealousy. It was perfectly agreed and "understood that we were to meet as

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strangers. We were at a ball.

She

came up and asked me if she might "waltz. I thought it perfectly indifferent "whether she waltzed or not, or with

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whom, and told her so, in different terms, "but with much coolness. After she had "finished, a scene occurred, which was "in the mouth of every one.

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"Soon after this she promised young

if he would

"call me out.

Yet can any one

"believe that she should be so infatuated,

“after all this, as to call at my apartments?

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(certainly with no view of shooting her

self.) I was from home; but finding "Vathek' on the table, she wrote in the "first page, 'Remember me!'

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"Yes! I had cause to remember her;

and, in the irritability of the moment, "wrote under the two words these two 66 stanzas :

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Remember thee, remember thee!

Till Lethe quench life's burning stream,
Remorse and shame shall cling to thee,

And haunt thee like a feverish dream!

Remember thee! Ay, doubt it not;

Thy husband too shall think of thee; By neither shalt thou be forgot,

Thou

to him, thou

to me!""

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I am accused of ingratitude to a cer

"tain personage. It is pretended that,

"after his civilities, I should not have

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spoken of him disrespectfully. Those

epigrams were written long before my "introduction to him; which was, after all,

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entirely accidental, and unsought-for on

my part. I met him one evening at Colonel J 's. As the party was a "small one, he could not help observing "me; and as I made a considerable noise "at that time, and was one of the lions of "the day, he sent General to de"sire I would be presented to him. I

"would willingly have declined the ho

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nour, but could not with decency. His

request was in the nature of a com"mand. He was very polite, for he is "the politest man in Europe, and paid

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me some compliments that meant no

thing. This was all the civility he ever "shewed me, and it does not burthen my "conscience much.

"I will shew you my Irish Avatara.' "Moore tells me that it has saved him "from writing on the same subject: he

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would have done it much better. I told "M— to get it published in Paris: he "has sent me a few printed copies; here

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is one for you. I have said that the "Irish Emancipation, when granted, will "not conciliate the Catholics, but will be "considered as a measure of expediency,

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