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tude to realize its force, I would utter, 'I will say unto God, my rock, why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy? why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance and my God.' This calmed the tempest, and although I counted the interval to the New Year's day with impatience; yet when the transient interview with the lawyer had terminated, it generally agitated my heart for some days after, and it was the most difficult portion of all the evangelical schooling which I experienced, to acquiesce with the Lord's will. Divine grace, however, at length enabled me to say, and I think in the same resigned temper with which David addressed Zadok, 'here am I, let him do to me as seemeth good unto him.' I now understand the cause of this gospel discipline. The Lord was gradually preparing my heart for the duties of that grateful office which I was destined to execute. Had I known the name of my proposed associate, it is probable that I should have refused all solicitation; but I had so long experienced Rohoirsic's fidelity, that his word was law with me. Then first I understood that Christian obligation, to do good for its own sake. Thanks be to God! it was effected; and I can truly say, that in giving, I received. Truly I was a novice in almost every thing, and confinement in the nunnery had not instructed me. It was a mercy, therefore, that I witnessed your mother's last year. Death and sickness, except in my own experienced debility, I had never seen; for the nuns at Quebec excluded me from all intercourse, as much as if I had been infected with the plague. At Three Rivers I very impressively learnt how mortality vanisheth away. In a most affecting example, I saw how the Lord can adapt his mercy. Anxiously I be

held every step in the pathway of righteousness trodden by Therese, from the city of destruction to the river of death, until grace triumphed in glory. During this whole scene, I was also deeply convinced of my own increasing frailty; but I had a companion. Her strong bursts of penitential anguish enlivened my own contrite feelings. Her occasional vehemence to take the kingdom of heaven by force quickened my own sincere endeavours. Her aspirations of praise inspired my gratitude, and her closely scrutinizing application of the Divine oracles, taught me the genuine characters of that spiritual mindedness which is life and peace. The lesson has been most salutary. Of the soul's separation from the body, my ideas were vague, incoherent and without sensibility; now they are precise, determinate, and animating, I have marked a penitent sinner's change, an emaciated mother's conversion to God, and a humble, cautious, and apprehensive believer, casting her hope as a sure and steadfast 'anchor, within the veil, whither the forerun ner for us is entered;' and I can retrace this whole Christian landscape of the narrow road, with all that I can include in the most joyful interpretation of the patient Job's cheerfully resigned and peacefully confident language. It expresses your Louise's feelings and solicitudes: 'all the days of my appointed time will I wait till my change come.'

"I was removed from Three Rivers almost imme, diately after the death of Therese. Rohoirsic visited me, and stated that if I approved, I might return to Quebec to reside in private lodgings; and that he had agreed with Diganu's father, that you, my brother, should not be apprized of the fact until our final interview, when I should be on the threshold of eter nity. This delighted me, and the lawyer provided apartments where almost daily I have seen you and

Chretien. I could have informed you of nothing which these papers will not communicate. In my feeble condition, frequent personal intercourse would only have agitated our feelings unnecessarily, and opened your wounds afresh without any balm to assuage the pain. It has been a cordial to my spirits to behold you, and to pray for my brother and his friend as you have passed along the street, unconscious that your Louise was so near you. Often have I rejoiced to hear your names associated with every thing good. Always have I felt delighted in the assurance that our mutual requests constantly ascend to the throne of grace, and that we shall meet in "the New Jerusalem, around the throne of God and of the Lamb, with his name in our foreheads; there to see his face, and serve him day and night in his temple."

"My increasing debility urges me to seal the packet of manuscripts intended for your perusal. When you read these papers, my dear Diganu, you will rejoice as your Louise has rejoiced, and you will weep with those who have wept. The anticipation of Paradise has often supported me amid my severest earthly trials; and now in the nearing approach of dissolution, the prospective reunion with our mother and you and Chretien, among the great multitude whom no man can number, to stand before the throne and before the Lamb, and sing salvation to our God,' so enraptures my heart, that it leaves me nothing to desire, but to be 'clothed upon with our house which is from beaven, that mortality might be swallowed up of life : and being accepted, that we may be present with the Lord!' Amen.

"Accept, my beloved brother, the undying love, and the Christian benediction of your unchanged and faithfully affectionate sister,

LOUISE,"

POSTSCRIPT BY DIGANU.

Ar the close of the year 17- Rohoirsic visited us. He mentioned his agreement with the pretre, that in the last period of her life, we should be admit ted to the presence of Louise; made us acquainted with her removal to Quebec, and also stated that she had frequently seen us. 'I came to apprize you of these circumstances,' said our friend, and also to inform you that she is now reduced so low, that you may prepare your minds for the invitation to the closing scene of her mortal existence.'

After several days Rohoirsic again appeared, and said, "Louise has been much affected with the pleasing anticipation of meeting you. You will find her extremely altered in appearance, so that you would not recognise her, except by her voice, and the cross. You are nearly the same," she says, "" as she identified you both in the street, when you were first noticed by her. Louise is at the portal of eternity, perfectly conscious, in all her mental vigour, and although she can speak but little, she is anxious to present you her last adieu." He retired, and after a short interval returned. "Come," said our friend, "Louise is near death, but fully sensible, and desirous to receive you."

Who can conceive what I felt, when, on entering the room, instead of the once blooming and graceful Louise, we saw a pale skeleton! She presented her hand, "Let me look at your head;" even in its feebleness, it was her own delightful, well-remembered voice. "It is Diganu," she said, and as she turned back her hair with her cold hand, I beheld the cross. "My Louise!" I could utter no more. We exchanged our tenderest salutation. After a short silence, she beckoned to Chretien who also received the kiss of

our dying protegée. When we had partially recovered our feelings, she addressed me with great difficulty. "My brother, here is a packet which I wished to deliver into your own hands," she gave me the narrative of her experience, "our friend will fulfil all my directions." She then presented her thanks to Rohoirsic for all his care and kindness, and prayed that the Lord would reward him a hundred fold, and that he might inherit everlasting life. As Chretien received her testimonial of affection, he thanked God that he was permitted to behold her in peace. "Yes, Chretien," she replied, "your friend has no doubt of her eternal safety." She then addressed me, "I sent for you, my beloved brother, that we might once more unite our devotions on earth. Pray for me and for yourselves, and your Louise will join in pleading with God on your behalf." I attempted to comply. All I remember is this, that what was defective in language and manner was supplied by feeling and sincerity. At the end of my prayer, she uttered her amen. I resumed my station by her, she faintly said, “All my worldly desires and connexions now are ended. God bless you, my brother!" She sunk into forgetfulness, while reclining on my shoulder. After some time, Louise again opened her languid eyes, and gave me an expressive glance; then, as she presently ap peared to be looking steadfastly upwards, my sister whispered to me, "Diganu, I see it. Lord Jesus! I come." Her eyes closed, and she entered the rest that remaineth to the people of God. We interred Louise by the side of her mother, and there I expect to repose, in certain hope of the resurrection of the just. DIGANU."

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